Sunday 24 January 2010

Evil simply doesn't exist when times are good.

"What if a window is a door?" Well, I've heard that shit before. I am not your way out. That was never what this was about.
All the world is mad but I'm not nearly as naive or afraid as not to put up a fight.
I'm stood by your left hand side tonight. Other nights I'll be found on your right.
Let's say we leave together if and when it feels alright to leave together tonight.
It's never too late for another song when, the drinks are deep and the winter is long but, the company still keeps.
If you want to get out of here, that's alright. Let's say we leave together if and when it feels right to leave together tonight.

Monday 11 January 2010

..and i know what every basement in the world can feel like on a good night.

Hopeless or helpless, neither a romantic. You may tire of me, I perceive, as you tire of me it seems. We are powerful, despite our injuries, I believe in this an absolute truth and in turn, as if to prove it, I rise before the sun and leave the house early each morning to return late at night in order to provide for others with a greater dependency. Irony is affluent, I insist, in a life where I am unable to provide for myself -- some-days simply aren't mine at all, to have or to hold --- I cherish the hole that I am finding ever inherent in my life. A hole that is not the exception but the rule. The hole is not the void in my life, but instead I learn that the void exists around the hole...in my chest, in my head, in my bed --- a depression, a negative, a darkness -- that painfully says: not a God-damn thing is going to change.
..and you may tire of me, I perceive, only as you tire of me it seems. Hopeless and helpless, but never a romantic. I named you sunlight in the stories I constructed, before ambiance replaced the chorus of story telling in my head. As I find a way to fall from the sun, I abandon my graces tonight as I become aware that there's one last drink before the bottle breaks, returning us to the dust from whence we came. I do savour the taste.